Good morning, internet! (I re-read my first two posts and realized that it’s kind of rude to only say good morning to myself and not anyone reading this, so hey hi hello.)

In case it wasn’t glaringly obvious yet: I’ve never daily blogged before.

I watch a lot of vloggers on YouTube so I get the idea, but this is still very foreign to me so I’m not sure what to write about. For now, until I really get into the groove, this 90 day daily blog will serve as more of a journal for me and my weird, incoherent, stream-of-conscious style thoughts. (Welcome to my brain.)

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So anyway, when I said yesterday that I was exhausted, I truly was exhausted. I tried to work on my novel a while right after work (Yeah, definitely did NOT write 50,000 words in November) but once that space heater is on in my office I feel like a little cuddled burrito and I had to go to bed lest I fall asleep at my desk.

I went to bed at 7:00pm, y’all. That is not okay.

Going to bed at 7pm is acceptable for three types of people:

1. infants
2. elderly
3. college students who juggle 15 credit hours, a part-time job, and a social life and only have the time to sleep scheduled in their planner for a few non-party hours every two days.

But I digress.

Needless to say, I’m feeling pretty bright eyed here at six in the morning today. I think that if I do go to the gym I’ll take it easier, though. My problem (in life, just my main problem altogether) is that I jump head first into big projects or goals and don’t take the time to adjust for the long term. Does anyone else do that? I get so excited about what I want to do and end up going too hard for about a week and then burning out physically. It’s not my excitement that dies, it’s literally my lack of human function because I’m not used to going to hard! It’s frustrating.

I should do a full break-down of my workouts soon. Hmm… I’ll work on that for an upcoming post.

Typically I do about 3 minutes stretching, a 5 minute aerobic warm-up, 4 to 5 weight training exercises (I use an upper body / lower body split, not individual body part days), and 10 to 15 minutes of cardio depending how long I took doing my weights. I aim for being at the gym an hour maximum. If I do go today I will stick to 10 minutes on the stationary bike and maybe a couple upper body lifts.

As for yesterday, I definitely ate that Mexican food and it was delicious. Hey, I’ve got wiggle room in my “healthy eating” goal, I’m still on track! Let a girl enjoy her chori pollo!

In all seriousness, it is super important to take all things in moderation. If you deprive yourself of everything that you want, even when you’re on a “diet”, then you’ll crave it more and more and you run the risk of letting yourself fall into a binge mindset. Binge sounds like a scary word: It may not be anything dramatic, but when you allow yourself to finally indulge after being too strict it may be at the cost of 2,500 calories of Wendy’s in one sitting. (Can you tell that I’ve been there? It’s not as hard to get that many calories at Wendy’s as you may think.)

I am certainly not an expert, but I lost 40lbs pretty recently after being the chubby kid my entire life it was not by being a hard ass to myself about my diet.

What I’ve learned, really just this year, is that even on a diet and even trying to lose weight if you listen to what your body needs it will be more willing to compromise with you. Does your body crave ice cream? Give it a couple bites of ice cream! Maybe make it a healthier option that’s still tasty and satisfying (I HIGHLY recommend Halo Top, oh my God…), but give it some ice cream. And then when you have broccoli and plain chicken breast planned for your next meal it won’t seem so terrible and your body will be like “Ugh, fine I guess” instead of throwing a temper tantrum about wanting carbs.

All I’m saying is cut your body some slack and your body will cut you some slack back.

Your body is just out here trying to survive, it’s not the enemy, it doesn’t know that you want to fit into a size 8 or run a marathon for funzies (hobby runners my true idols). So be a little nicer to it. Explain your goals to your body kindly and with your actions, because I’ve tried yelling and cursing at mine and I don’t think it speaks English.

*Steps down from soapbox*
*Takes a bow*